Where have I been?

Published: January 2, 2010Posted in: Thinkin'
Where have I been?

Hello readers!  I thought I might explain where I’ve been lately and what’s going on.  I gave a short explanation at my weight update 2 weeks ago, but I wanted to give more details to you now.

I’ve hit a wall with my weight loss.  I figured out the exercise aspect, Nicole has helped me with that.  I’m no longer a couch potato who gets winded going up a flight of stairs!  I’ve incorporated exercise into my life and it no longer seems like a chore.  So why is the weight loss so painfully slow?  Why in the last couple of months has it completely stalled?  Food.  I just still haven’t figured out how to deal with it yet.

If weight loss was the only goal here I could just starve myself for a couple of months and finish this thing up.  But as any of you who struggle with your weight know, it’s just not about the food!  My goal is to no longer have an issue with food, and as a result, no longer have an issue with my weight.  This requires dealing with long held habits of dealing with emotional issues with food and allowing triggers other than hunger to dictate when and what I eat.  This is the aspect that just hasn’t changed during this process.

Now, on the positive side, I eat a whole lot less than I did at this time last year!  I do give myself credit for that.  I have learned so many excellent strategies from my partners and I have way more info on healthy eating and nutrition than I did a year ago.  So, how do I change?  What plan will work for me?  How can I learn to eat normally without being on a “diet”?

That’s what I’m working on right now.  I have all the info I need to change.  It’s time to start experimenting and see what works for me.  So why not share this process on the blog?  Because I don’t want to!  I promise to come back and share what I’ve figured out in a few weeks, but until then, I’m on my own.  I’m taking a break from the Shrinking so I can focus on changing how I eat.  I just can’t worry about losing weight while I do this.  If I’m focused on a number on the scale, I’m not focused on the behavior!  Like I wrote the other week, my sister came and took my scale away.  She will come over and weigh me occasionally so I can see what’s working, but I’m not worried about dropping pounds right now.  I know that once I figure out how to remove guilt, shame, and deprivation from my eating cycle, I will lose weight.

I hope you’ll stick with me over the next few weeks.  I’ll be posting occasionally and will also post great blogs from my “Shrink Partners.”   Speaking of my partners, I’d like to say a big “Thank You!” to them for sticking with me though this process.  Their support (as well as yours) means the world to me!